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Thursday, March 29, 2012

My love...

I have been struggling with so many things over the last six months. To move away from my friends & family, without a job. Being homesick and torn between being "home" with my family and "home" with my fiance. I never want to choose between the two, it's been so difficult and a struggle for the last six ..... nope, for the last year. I am happy I moved back and desperately wishing and hoping that Ryan finds a job down here, because I need him here with me. The stress and the ups & downs have resulted in me becoming a moody, irritable and pretty much crazy person. I am not the person I strive to be, I am not the person I know that I can be, that I am, because my heart is torn... and because of that I owe this blog to my love...


Ryan, my Knight in Shining Armor, the love of my life, the only person who has ever loved me for me, I am sorry I have been a crazy lady who picks fights with you, who is short with you, who doubts the words you say-- you are the most amazing person I have ever met. Even when I am entirely insane you support me, you love me and you forgive me. I owe you my undying love because you, you have never let me wander in my crazy thoughts too long. I am sorry. I am sorry for all the ways I test you, your patience and your sanity. You are wonderful, supportive, and some days I wonder how I got so lucky, so lucky to have found you and to have you in my life. You are the most amazingly perfect man and I love you. Now & forever.

In order for LESS crazy Julie and more Julie Julie.... hurry home, please. I love you!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Day TWO Update...

I am sure my dear friends are curious as to how things are going & what's going on in the wonderful world of Arkansas. Ryan & I got in Friday night, we unloaded the car and I attempted to shove my clothes in every nook and cranny in my tiny little bedroom. Ryan & I spent Saturday looking at apartments, having lunch, going to Mass and dinner with my parents. Sunday was so bittersweet. My love headed back to Illinois, without me. I am so happy to be here, minus the whole *being 31 & living w/ my parents* part, but happy to be here, where I feel comfortable, around my friends, my great co-workers, close to my family and my adorable puppies. I just feel so lost without my love here, not knowing when I'll see him again, but we'll survive this and soon I am positive we will be together again! (Still Praying!!)

I went back to work yesterday. Last year's job was a seasonal internship, this year... I am picking up at the next level. This is a full-time, year-round position. For some reason even my parents are confused by this... "why do you need an apartment, for only a few months?" my mother said. Um, not sure what you mean, but I am here to stay, hopefully!! I spent most of yesterday doing paperwork and getting caught up on what has gone on since I left. I am trying to take a few thins off Katie's plate, since she's been working her old job, plus a new job, plus more I am sure. I kind of took Katie's old position, so I have been working to pick up on things I remember how to do and to learn a few new things this week. Opening day is only 38 days away... I am excited to get there, to get caught up and to start this season.

Thank you to all my friends who have supported me and helped me! Just being an ear to voice my concerns is a blessing. I am looking forward to getting Ryan down here to stay... if anyone hears of an amazing job opening in NWA or has the ability to pray & be positive that his current job can help us soon I would appreciate your help! Thank you my dear friends...

Friday, March 2, 2012

Going Home

There are a top 5 reasons to getting back to NWA. Of course this does not include the job, because the job has so much to offer it just seems unfair to list it. I mean I am going back to the job. I get to be a fan of baseball. I get to work with all the amazing people. It is going to be hard work, it's going to be crazy and overwhelming, but it is going to get me working & having fun!

The TOP 5 beyond the job are as follows:
5) Less Stress for Wedding Planning!
4) Closer to My Parents!
3) Closer to My Friends-- yay for doing nothing & everything with them!
2) Regular Trips to See Scotty! Scott Edwards, the best aesthetician in the world.
1) My Puppies!! (the most adorable, long-haired dachshunds in the world)