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Sunday, September 15, 2013

Almost 8 weeks later...

We've been through so much... a Dr's visit almost every week. Yes, we are new parents and we know nothing about some of these things (someone could have warned me how gross his umbilical cord would be when it fell off. I almost "toss my cookies") and I broke out in hives. It was so scary, but we have a healthy and happy baby.
I spent the first month of his life sleeping on the couch (mostly because I couldn't sleep in the bed, due to my incision, stitches & pain, plus the nursing every hour or so) and Conner slept in my arms. I loved it because I love the bonding and the cuddling. Rusty was not as big a fan, as I was pretty much off limits to him. My mother tried to warn me I was "spoiling" the baby by holding him ALL day, but I couldn't put him down. I was so in love!! Unfortunately this did leave me feeling drained. When people tell you the first two weeks of nursing is the toughest they are not kidding!! I felt like I couldn't leave the house, I couldn't get a minute away, I felt like I was basically constantly attached to the baby and as much as I loved most of it, it left me with a severe case of cabin fever. I just wanted to get a moment alone. 18 days later I finally got it... with an hour at the nail salon getting my toes done! When I returned home I couldn't get enough of Conner. I just missed him so much!!

Ryan has been getting better and better every day with this whole fatherhood thing. Almost 8 weeks later you almost can't tell that he had ZERO experience with children. Hard to believe he's the same guy who said to me "I'll do it, but I've never done it before and don't know how" when I asked him, in the hospital, to change Conner's diaper. After walking him through it, he has started to catch on. He looks like a natural carrying our little man around the house.
Now that Conner has gotten bigger and is awake & alert more it just kills me to see his facial expressions. Sometimes he looks EXACTLY like his father, other times I swear he's a mini-me. We are so in love with this baby it is hard to believe he's almost 8 weeks old and in just a month I will have to leave him to go back to work.
 
 
He is now sleeping in his bassinet during the night and we are capable of doing things as a family. We made a return to church for the first time as a family of 3 and while Conner did make a few things a little difficult it was nice to get back there. We will be baptizing Conner after Christmas and are so thankful that he will have the greatest Godparents ever (my college roommate/matron of honor Megan and her husband Mike.) He loves tummy time and kicking on his floor mats. He's not a fan of Rusty's kisses, but he likes to look at him. His sweet BLUE eyes follow me whenever I hand him over to someone else to hold. He loves his Nonna when she talks to him, endlessly. He gets his daddy time when Ryan returns from work and he is the sweetest baby ever.
As much as I said I never wanted to do this whole pregnancy thing again this kid might just change my mind. He melts my heart and I've never felt so happy. I could just cover him in kisses and stay with him forever. I might be a very protective mommy, but I just love him more than words could describe!! So thankful for this little man in our life!
 
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